"Creativity Takes Courage"
and I have had none
I have been wallowing in grief for the last two months. I lost my grandpa to stage 4 cancer on the 29th of April - I was there with him - and since then I felt neither courage nor creativity. But I suppose that is normal for grief. However, I feel like so many artists, musicians, and writers turn to creation when grieving. There are approximately 90 billion breakup songs and poems about loss. But surprisingly this unspoken rule has not applied to me.
Ironically, I made ‘creativity takes courage’ my profile picture when I created this profile (before my grandpa died). But I think I have been automatically using my (honestly limited) courage to get through the grief and nothing else. However, the grief is getting easier, and the courage to be creative is settling back in. So, here I am, ready to be vulnerable and create my first official blog post. We can forget about my introductory upload where I absolutely lied through my teeth: “I’ll upload every week” - yeah right.
So here is where I’m at:
“Start where you are, use what you have, do what you can.”
I’m starting! For me. Even if no one ever reads any of this - at least I’m creating something. And it’s something I’ve always wanted to do - share my writing, share my voice. No fear, no doubt, just action. Starting is the hardest part and now I have done it. But what’s next?
Well here’s what I can tell you for now about my life and the kind of content I will be uploading: anything can happen. I just got into master’s overseas so I’m in the process of moving abroad. Maybe at some point I’ll tell you all where. I definitely will. I am absolutely going to write about it. There is so much in store for me, so many new experiences, and people and places to learn from. I am absolutely terrified but so excited too. I have never lived so far from home and in a place with such a different culture from my own. It’s going to be an adventure that’s for sure. Hopefully (definitely) full of excitement, romance, laughter, friendship, learning and CREATIVITY.
I hope you follow along. I can’t wait to look back one day and read how I felt when this all began.
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